Hello!
It has been a year since I create a blog..
I have passed so many stories in my life, and you know.. that has been so hard..
hehe..
I already have a new boyfriend too, and still have a lot of problems..
Life is not life without problems..
I already celebrated Valentines Day as lover, and also break up too not longer after that day.. :'(
I know, that was my choice..
But sometimes my emotions close my mind that I very love him.....
I feel sad, filling in blue.
I am also want to fix my relationship, but you know every day become more bitter and bitter.
That problems indeed, I'm tired.....
Bu Elisabeth tell me that he will be my husband.. How come?
Bu Elisabeth is my teacher in my community of religion, she can talk with God and tell me what God purposes in my life..
We don't match each other..
He is very introvert, but I need someone who can give me advice and entertain me..
He cannot...........................
My life is so hard.... I am feel so alone.
He chooses his family more than me, that was so great..
but you know, I feel like I sacrifice my feelings too much, to always understand, I can't..
I am tired..
But the problem is I cannot leave that community, God tell her that if I leave komsel, my degree will become messy.........
My degree is everything for me..
I cannot think more, if I cannot finish my college..
I have hope in my graduate later.
Today, I want to call him...
You know he always make me lift my temper.......... grrrrr..........
He cannot receive the phone call because of signal!!!!
He doesn't have appropiate place to receive my phone call..
I need to talk so much, and sometimes I just want to be listened.
and he cannot hear my voice, oh damn!!
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We are not in a good condition..
I feel ashamed and guilty..
I also have a lot of mistakes towards him...
So I want to break up...
but you know what
Hearts cannot lie, I still love him..
See you in my next post.
