Jera

Hitam bukan cirimu

Putih juga bukan cirimu

Semu kumelihatmu..

Tak bercahaya seperti memudar..

Cinta aku mencinta

Kamu yang aku mau

Namun tak tepat waktu

Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan.

Salam hangat untuk cintamu

Aku yang kandas dan patah hati

Biarlah orang memandang lemah

Aku tak mau mencinta lagi

Engkau yang dulu pernah kucinta

Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya

Aku terluka oleh cintanya

Kini kau hadir ku sudah jera..

I hope I can rely on someone.
I don't have anything except my love.
But that person, I cannot be relied on.
Sooo tired.
Love, show me your way.

Problem in Life

Hello!
It has been a year since I create a blog..

I have passed so many stories in my life, and you know.. that has been so hard..
hehe..
I already have a new boyfriend too, and still have a lot of problems..
Life is not life without problems..
I already celebrated Valentines Day as lover, and also break up too not longer after that day.. :'(

I know, that was my choice..
But sometimes my emotions close my mind that I very love him.....
I feel sad, filling in blue.
I am also want to fix my relationship, but you know every day become more bitter and bitter.
That problems indeed, I'm tired.....

Bu Elisabeth tell me that he will be my husband.. How come?
Bu Elisabeth is my teacher in my community of religion, she can talk with God and tell me what God purposes in my life..
We don't match each other..
He is very introvert, but I need someone who can give me advice and entertain me..
He cannot...........................
My life is so hard.... I am feel so alone.
He chooses his family more than me, that was so great..
but you know, I feel like I sacrifice my feelings too much, to always understand, I can't..
I am tired..
But the problem is I cannot leave that community, God tell her that if I leave komsel, my degree will become messy.........
My degree is everything for me..
I cannot think more, if I cannot finish my college..
I have hope in my graduate later.

Today, I want to call him...
You know he always make me lift my temper.......... grrrrr..........
He cannot receive the phone call because of signal!!!!
He doesn't have appropiate place to receive my phone call..
I need to talk so much, and sometimes I just want to be listened.
and he cannot hear my voice, oh damn!!

..............................................................................
We are not in a good condition..
I feel ashamed and guilty..
I also have a lot of mistakes towards him...
So I want to break up...
but you know what
Hearts cannot lie, I still love him..

See you in my next post.

Happy Valentines Day, Everyone!

Valentines day is coming. I know that I am still single, but it doesn't matter to say Happy Valentine to everyone. I am also proud that I am still in My Lord, Jesus heart. Stay blessed everyone!

 

 

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Happy Valentines Day Everyone!

Ancoliers

Another photoshoot that held in Ancol. We accidentally decide to go to Ancol, it just so random to held an photoshoot in there. I'm feel so stressed because of my thought about my weight will increasing caused by uncontrolled ate in few days ago. The result was there so many photos with bigger leg, bigger arm, and so many more. Lets start a new diet, even that will also be held tomorrow. :P

L style

the happy child

feel so envy about her fabulous photoshoot lol

not so bad, right? *staring*

chika, why you feel so happy? haha

KPP Stephanus Goes To Cibubur

Let me introduce my community cell first. This is the one of the best part in my life, since I know them. Required by Jesus, this comunity cell is called KPP Stephanus. There was a day when we went to Cibubur to held the new atmosphere of worship. There such a beautiful place in Taman Bunga Wiladatika. Let's check this out.. :)

where do you want to go?

I love that situation in Taman Bunga Wiladatika. There such a beautiful places with people in Jesus are gathered. Theres no end to make a strong impression of worship, we took this place to refresh our mind. The happiness not end and passed away. We still have a lot of surprise, for our beloved Andhika, Devi, and Michelle. :) :) :)

the strong atmosphere of worship

happy birthday our beloved in Chirst.. :D

the best capture ever.. narcism.. :P

ehem.. ehem.. Hatchiu.. haha

the funniest capture. lol

our newest couple.. they just now have one month anniversary. how sweet they are!

I heart you.. KPP Stephanus :))

Pancake Time

I was so happy in the beginning of the year 2012. I and my friends went to Central Park and not to forget to take photo in there. The funniest moment is when there is a rules in Central Park, we cannot take photos illegally in there. It was so funny when we avoid the security. There is one security that followed us every where we took the photos. So we just took a few of photos in there and full of laughing. These are some photos.

at Central Park Hall

in the mid of situation, we still took photos. haha

After took some photos in CP, we decided to eat pancake in Pancious. There wasn't Pancious in CP, so we walk a little to reach Taman Anggrek Mall. In there, that was so free to take photo anywhere that we want. We took so much photos like crazy. Why? Because there was a lot. If we met mirror, we also took photo. Simply, we just a teenager and teenager is a situation when you become crazy about photos, right?

Pancious mini menu

ester. elena. angelin. jessica

can't wait to taste Chocolate Coco Pancake

edit by Ester

2NE1 style, Oh My God!